Need to do a Deed !!!!

How should i explain this urge to do a deed , maybe good, maybe bad or simply anything but i need to do a deed . before i cross the horizon yet again ...

Why do i have this need ? Is it simply because lately life has been pretty monotonous and i have not been able achieve or simply avail of the feeling/ sensation of achievement ?

or its the underlying fear of being pushed into the hedge of a serious relationship without having the relevant stability to sustain it ? why do people have this tendency to be pressurized into something as serious as marriage without even considering the proper pro and cons of it , being prepared for it. just so as to please the social dabble mouths and succumb to peer pressure.

And its ok that they don't ask this to themselves they are ready to jump into it as this is not the only responsibility in life, but life in itself is one big responsibility . we see it today as the next logical step without caring how will you sustain this step . its easy for parents to force us because for them this is just a duty to fulfill but how do we understand it, its not a duty or responsibility only - it is our life which will be thrown into a free fall with this !!!

Even if i want this as badly as i really want but not being able to support it puts me down and i dont know how to convince the whole social peer group what i really do feel ?


AAAARGGGGHHHH that all i can say !!! for now !!!