Life is a song !!! albiet a complicated one !

Life is a song !!! albeit a complicated one , with all its intricacies, all the twists and turns of vocal chords pronouncing various ragas, which form the main basis and accesory tones and instruments which form our choices.

Every morning when i pray and do the traditional Surya namaskar while walking in this snowy desert devoid of life and emotions at that hour or for that matter at any hour !!! it reminds me how precious is our life and how seemingly delicate our the people living in it.
we humans are creatures spoiled by choice and react sheepishly with the abundance of it in front of us, without ever thinking about our predecessors the ancient ones who didn't have any thing to choose from, we think that these choices are for granted, its our right to choose without visualizing the facts that there are millions who will never get the same choices like us and there will be thousands who will have it better than us.
by understanding this simple fact we should be able to suffice our choices as given and cherished , and not be taken for granted, these choices range from materialistic to emotional to things of no physical value. like love, loving someone meant to accept them as a whole with their flaws and not changing them, but we still do try even though this is what we speak all the time,
there was also another statement " If you love someone you let them go and if they come back they really loved you too" but i say if you love someone how can you let them go ?????

enough about all my foolish ramblings:-

lets get serious, there is this person i do love and there is this person i loved, but am i right to put them both in the same sentence and my expecting my present love to accept it also, aint that way wrong. i understand that my present did not do anything wrong and they love me for who i am, still why do i have this urge to ask them to accept my past. for sure i can make all the necessary changes to erase my past if it pleases my present. but will it be love then because it means i am changing myself for the sake of a better future, but do i need that future when i am happy with my present one, which includes me ,my thoughts,my memories,my character and my life. and if i change all this then i am not the same person the present fell in love with, will this not be worse r ?

what should i do ? with all these mini revolutions going on in my brain and my heart ? should i follow the brain, or the heart or just simply flow with this river and time will fix everything, stop all this constant barrage of thoughts stressing me and give life another chance !!!1

people advise me that whatever happens it happens for good and happens for a reason and also god is watching over you he chose the best way , then i ask them back god is surely watching but with me as a part of a over 6 billion strong species i don't think h has enough time for my emotional conundrum! my personal panic , so i have to do the job , make the choices and MOVE ON !!!!