Change = do i need it ?

I took an initiative today, to accept the past and remove it from my future for the sake of my present.... it was not an easy task, but i hope it was worth it. is deleting your past enough or is it just the beginning of a series of compromises One makes in lieu of peace of mind.

i tried it today and even though it bothers me immensely ,i still would have done it eventually, if not today then some day in the future, but at that time it would have been for me and this present sense of compromise would not have been there. alas its too late to recoup now, the task is already done.

it is difficult to separate this constant unease from the peace. all i can hope is the line gets drawn here, i am not good with authority and esp. not the forceful kind, but still i forced myself to do something which changes the balance in my relationship.

i feel a bit like che but only in the affairs of love, socialism combined with pseudo communism leads eventually to autocratic capitalism. i hope my heart stays a democracy with all the rights of a republic.