Random Ramblings

I sit in my room with the sun rays shining through, the sky appears bluer , life appears perfect but still there are doubts, what does a person who has all that he needs, why do i still feel the urge ? why is this feeling which makes me weak in my knees, weak in my beliefs still persist ? why do we as human always value things which we know are not good for us, why do we always want something we have lost, why do we have this yearning feeling ?

when every essence of my being advises me against it ....

I have found love yet again, after the initial scare that i had lost everything i have yet again found heaven, touched the sky, found the person i can call my soul mate but i still inevitably end up hurting her day in day out, with all these complexities the complicated thoughts arising in my brain push me towards chaos ....


But maybe that's what i require, that's what makes me who i am ? yes i am a complicated soul, who just needs a key to be unraveled and the more i try to give this key or an essence of it to the love of my life, the more she appears lost, but that's what puts a smile on my face that she still has this innocence,
this angel who has been in my life for 8 years doesn't stop to amaze me, i wish her to continue with it and try to steer me towards our common goal, she has a hard task in front of her but the goal is achievable, AT LEAST THAT'S HOW I SEE IT !!