here and now- where i am ?

its just an assessment of all the volley of weird thoughts and a collection of dreams i have been having, since the start of this year. i have been through a lot of these thinking sessions and what i have realized after all this is .... that the human mind is a dangerous, amazing , exceptional, immoral device on which to develop a ontrol is my present challenge. i have been thinking and literally flying around the globe in my thoughts....literally i can tell you that i have been to India day in and day out in my personal dream liner. the reason i put across the table for this situation i am in presently is only because i have too much time on my hands. so what i do instead of utilizing it in something constructive, it is not that i don't try but i don't know why i end up thinking about stuff which shouldn't be on my plate at this moment.i am sitting at my desk in my clinic i am finishing a case report which i am supposed to submit today and voila my mind starts flying to India ,to Delhi , to my home....

2009 !!!!

unlike my last few years and if i remember correctly , last 7 years i decided to celebrate the new year here in Moscow. i thought what the heck ? its time to go down this path also... so how was my new year 2009 eve in Moscow , well to say it in a single word it was lonely , that is not the way i wanted to spend it. but alas the day i made my plan to stay here all my friends here abandoned me , they thought i was outright crazy to do that , instead of going home or taking a much needed holiday i wanted to stay here. But without any kind of fear i took the decision and decided i will spend my new year here in Moscow -the city which i have been on and off calling home....
at the end i thought why to worry i will be working till the 30th and then meet a few of my russian friends for the new year eve and have a blast of a time like always .....but this is where came the biggest shock for me... even my russian friends had plans in other countries....they left .
i came to terms with this info and the fear of lonliness started to climb all over me. but i thought what the heck i can manage all of that ...its not much just a stupid festival its like any other day . but believe me i was wrong , you should be aware that in russia , esp. moscow ... new year eve is just not like any other pradsnik it is THE pradsnik and they are not thier dull self they are in high spirits for the whole night and the week to come because next in a few more days on the 6th is the russian orthodox christmas, so a foreigner alone here on his day feels even more lonely than on any other holiday.....